When my confident crash!

Assalamualaikum.

Geum Jan Di (Korea actress)

Today, for this beautiful, dark and cold evening, I would like to write about my level of confident. Believe it or not, it is 4 out of 10! I guess it's still okay rather than 1 (this is the phase where I guess I shouldn't be living anymore). Hargghh.. That's what happen when I keep seeing all the beautiful women around me. And this is what happen when no one will ever tell me that I'm beautiful!(haha, kidding) I had enough of scary phase to be face and not this one too. And why should I be insecure? I think the biggest major problem is because of my, WEIGHT. Hoho.. Just serve me right because of so lazy to go for an exercise and love to be at home and stay quite in the dark (well don't blame me, I love silence a lot).

What's so good for having an ideal weight or a perfect body for a women? It means everything!! It does mean for a healthy body and mind, higher chances to be flirtatious (really not me) and for us to achieve a higher level of CONFIDENCE! I guess, as a beautiful women sometimes they just doesn't realize that they are beautiful no matter how much people said that THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL. It's pathetic...

From my opinion, for us to look on how much beautiful the women are, so damn FAMOUS (amos), many FRIENDS and many FANS are the priority to be looking for. I'm calling it 3 Factors or 3F. It can be many others way that we can say like how much people LIKE their picture in facebook or how much man are standing beside her, wanting her to be his wife. haha. So, if you have the 3F then call yourself lucky because YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.  Not me (upss..huhu..see, I'm lacking of confidence). Someone please transfer some of your confidence to me!

It looks like time is running too fast. I thought I just heard someone said to me when I was small that you are lucky to be a kid because at one time, when you are growing bigger (as a woman), you'll have so much to face and you started to keep your full attention in pulchritude (the new word I found which mean 'kecantikan') . You'll keep thinking whether you are beautiful or not and keep comparing with the others. Sigh. and I guess she's right then. I'm in that phase now (ohh my...) and I hate iT!

I guess that's why I keep improving myself in education so that they can see something that's great on me other than being a beautiful woman. Gagaga. At least when I actually realizing my dream, when people look on my pic and said, "Well, she's not beautiful at all" but then his friend will say, "Oh, you'll never said that on her. Don't you know, she's a doc. Do you think it's easy to be a doc.Can you ever be like her?". And then that first man monologue, "Wow, she's GREAT".

YEaahhH! Can you see? Mission accomplished!

Haha..that's so pathetic, right?

Being myself is the best thing I ever had and I'm not gonna change it. It's just something else that I need to change (well, just let it be my secret). So, I guess being beautiful or not, it'll never mean anything if you have such a bad attitude! Women are beautiful in their own way. We are created to complete this world! haha. I would say that I've found so many character in every woman I know but they are still charming in their own way and they complete the world. Well, maybe not the world but at least the world around them or around me. haha.

p/s : So, just be yourself! Go and take the mirror and say you are beautiful, in you own way! BUT! Be a nice girl/woman, okay!Peace!

BEAUTIFUL WOMAN AROUND ME

(Should I told you..tak payahlaa...)

hee..

p/ss : You wanna know who's the beautiful girl/woman around me? Then, check it out on facebook of whose I post to them 'You are beautiful' on their profile.
I'll make 6 of it.hehe.G'luck!

p/sss : Almost forget to say, my confident has level up until 9! Yeahh!!haha..

Wassalam