Serotonin yang menganggu dan first meeting with Mr. Cadaver!

Assalamualaikum.

Hakikatnya hari ini baru aku mengetahui hormon aku yang manakah yang asyik membuatkan aku bagai mabuk cinta, sampai aku jadi rimas dan resah akan hal ini. Ya, memang selama ini aku tertanya-tanya mengenai persoalan tersebut. Apakah yang menyebabkan aku jadi mudah untuk menyukai seseorang lelaki? Dan baru hari ini aku mengetahui bahawa hormon serotonin la yang terlibat dalam mengawal emosi aku ini. Bagai telah ditakdirkan oleh Allah untuk aku memahami keadaan sebenar diriku ini dengan lebih baik, my professor told me about that hormone in the lecture pagi tadi. Dia cakap bahawa in young man, hormone serotonin is much produce and it controls our emotions. That's why la young man is easy to fall in love when they see a beautiful girl. Lebih kurang macam tu lah ayat dia. Well, of course it's not just boy, girl pun sama la berada di dalam situasi ini. Persoalannya, aku tak mengerti dengan sebenarnya mengapa Allah menetapkan bahawa dalam usia muda, hormon itu akan lebih banyak berbanding dengan waktu lain? Ada sesiapa ada suggestion answer?

Next, I'll tell you about my new experience past few weeks. At last, I had a chance to meet Mr. Cadaver. Well, at first memangla tak seronok langsung kan. Because of why? Sebab I can't even see the body because my friends block my view. Terlalu ramai classmates kan nak buat macam mana. So, saya tak excited langsung la. And then when the professor make an explanation bla bla bla about Mr. Cadaver and what he'll do to him. Actually, his head and body is already separated. And what my prof want to do was to cut the head into two pieces using a blazer (it looks like it). When they started, I'm really grateful not to be in front because it's already looks scary like a thriller movie from the back plus there's some fluid splashed to the front people that I felt happy for it because of the fact that they didn't gave me a chance to see Mr. Cadaver at all. haha. So cruel, right? After the head is in two pieces, our prof. showed us the cerebelum part in the brain but of course I can't see it. And then my friends dekat depan tu mulalah beransur-ansur ke belakang tandanya sesi hari tu dah tamat. I yang sangat eager sebelum ni nak tengok mayat tu berpeluang jugalah ke depan and see it. Okay, I don't want to touch it! No! I just looked at it from far away (not beside it eventhough I'm the one who's eager to see it before) and then I just stared at it and then the body stared at me back. We just like having a stare contest for a few moments with me tip-toeing to see the whole body (as I told you before I just look at it from far away, punyalah penakut). And then the best part is here. The boys (of my class) want to go out from the corner where the trolley that have Mr. Cadaver above it block them, and then our prof. started to pull the trolley towards me. Just imagine, he's being closer, he's beinggg closserrr...NOOO!! I really cemas at that time. I really was alone at that corner and then the trolley started to block my way to go out. Arghh!! Actually, above the trolley is just Mr. Cadaver's body so that's why I feel afraid. And honestly I don't and never will ever like thriller movie! NEVER! Luckily I was wearing a mask that hide half of my worried face. Luckily too that I can think fast and act fast, I quickly slip away to the small passage beside the trolley before it completely close my way. The conclusion that I can say here is that, it's still not nice experience to meet with Mr. Cadaver.


Because I had been so busy, sometiems I do lost track of the time and without I notice it at all, I've been here for almost 2 months. Rasa sangat sekejap masa berlalu sebenarnya. Mana tak nya, pagi-pagi dah siap untuk mandi, solat dan sebagainya. Pergi kuliah pukul 8 pagi. Habis kuliah approximately 4-630pm. Balik-balik dah penat semua rehat sekejap. Malam pergi surau sampai Isyak. Balik tu study study and study and then pukul 1 am (kalau sempat survive until this time la kan, kalau dah syahid awal tu lam 11 pm lebih dah tidur) tidur. Lepas itu, esok pagi mandi solat bersiap berkejar nak pergi kuliah dengar lecturer talk talk talk habis kelas....dan seterusnya... so masa yang berlalu tu tak dirasakan sangat. Tapi bagus jugalah sebab kami busy ke arah kebaikan untuk mendapatkan ilmu dan keredhaan Allah SWT dan bukan buat perkara yang sia-sia. So, alhamdulillah. HA! Nak diceritakan di sini sebenarnya disebabkan I kept lost track of the time, I forgot yang my sis-in-law is pregnant.

So on 8th Nov 2011, she was giving birth to a very handsome and cute baby, named QAID DANIAL BIN SHAHRIL HAZRY.

 Everyone, introducing my new boyfriend, Qaid Danial! He's so cute, right? Ouuuhh.. He have his mother and Qis's eyes...

I love that Danial part actually so I think I wanna call him Danial when he's becoming a handsome boy one day. haha. So saya sangat excited la at that time when I know my sis-in-law selamat melahirkan anak. Akhirnya,  I got a nephew! YEAHH!! I'm very happy. And finally Qis and Sara got adik lelaki. Actually, saya dah agak yang my brother will gave his name start with Q jugak since his two sisters' names start with Q jugak. Well, I don't know what is mean by Qaid but I hope it brings a good meaning for that little boy. OuuuH! For the first time I saw Danial's picture, I feel like I wanna scream! He's so cute SO CUTE SO CUTTE!! Dan saya pun mula rasa rindu dekat Danial walaupun tak pernah lagi bersua muka. I really want to meet him, want to hold him, kiss him and play with him. It feels really seronok to have a nephew, I told you! haha. Sangat seronok. Waktu Qis and Sara lahir pun I was totally HAPPY! Sonok2.

Tetapi....

Kesian pula dengar cerita dari mak. Really kesian dekat Sara. Mak cakap abang cerita semenjak Danial lahir ni, orang lain asyik main dengan Danial je, Sara akan duduk dekat ceruk-ceruk tepi-tepi dinding. Ouuhh!! Sangat kesian dekat that little girl. Kecian dekat dia tak de orang nak main dengan dia dah. Well, I told my mum dulu Qis pun macam tu juga sejak Sara lahir now Sara feel the same way too. I think that's how people grow, with experience to make them mature along the time. Saya je yang sentiasa bongsu dah tak pernah rasa ada adik which is fun! haha. But honestly when I was just a little girl (macam lagu kan :D ), saya pun ada la felt jealous with my cousin (which is younger than me) sebab my mum selalu manjakan dia. haha. Well, I mature with experience. Nasiblah memang dari kecik saya memang try untuk memahami keadaan dan belajar dari situasi walaupun kadang-kadang merajuk tu ada jugak nak buat macam mana kan dah anak bongsu. :PPP

Actually these morning I've an end of module's examinantion. I don't want to talk much about it. Lepas je exam, kami bersiap-siap solat and makan and then pergi ke Kampus Gong Badak, UniSZA. Sebenarnya dah lama nak pergi tapi tak de kesempatan waktu saja so alang-alang dah ada masa kami pergi la kan hari ini. So saya, Farah, Syafiqah Zainal Abidin adn Syafiqah Abdul Majid naiklah kereta angkut (which is more cheaper) untuk ke Kampus Gong Badak (dengan adalah sedikit harapan untuk berjumpa dengan si dia tetapi hampa). haha.. Saya nak pergi sana pun sebab nak pergi unit pinjaman dan penajaan, berjumpa dengan Pn Anizan untuk bertanyakan pasal JPA kami sebenarnya.

Sampai je dekat Kampus Gong Badak kami tersesat. Kesian kan, nama je pelajar UniSZA tetapi kampus utama pun tak tahu selok-beloknya lagi. Kami memang tak pernah tahu pun pejabat HEPA dekat mana so kami agak jelah pejabat tu dekat dengan DABS (Dewan Al-Muktafi Billah Shah). Rupanya jauh nunnnn dekat sebelah masjid. Syafiqah (Zainal Abidin) and Iqa (Abdul Majid) berjalan ke arah pejabat foyer sebab Iqa nak jumpa pak cik saudara dia dekat sana while saya dan Farah pun berjalanlah menuju ke masjid UniSZA dan sedikit sebanyak dapatlah merasai kehidupan sebagai seorang mahasiswi (macam sebelum ini bukan mahasiswi je kan). Bukan apa, kami dekat Kampus Kota ni kawasan kecil je so tak rasalah macam dekat universiti. Rasa macam pergi sekolah harian biasa je sebenarnya. And during that time, kami sangatlah grateful sebab our place is just small compare to Kampus Gong Badak so kami pun tak de la penat nak ke sini dan ke sana. Kami pun berjalan berjalan dan berjalan. Sesampainya dekat pejabat HEPA, singgah tandas dulu (perlu ke mention?) hehe and then Farah terjumpa kedai buku. OWH! Dan saya pun fall in love dengan kedai buku dekat dengan pejabat HEPA tu, which is kedai koperasi sebenarnya. Why I fall in love with that shop, bukan kerana orang yang ada di dalam kedai tu tetapi buku-buku yang dijual di situ. It's all the kind of books that I really want to have a long long long time ago! Dari Al-Hidayah publishers, Telaga Biru, PTS dan sebagainya. Arghhh, I'm in heaven when I enter that shop! haha. I really waat to own all the books  especially karangan Dr. Aidh bin Abdullah Al-Qarni. I really love his books. He's the one who write the La Tahzan book for woman which I really love it. I really want to own all his books and the other novels or buku-buku nasihat yang lain cuma I don't have enough money. So kena tahanlah diri to own all of it and be patience until lah duit JPA masuk nanti. huhu. Antara buku-buku yang I wanna buy adalah :

 

I really love this books! I already finish reading it and you should own it and read it if you're a girl or woman who always feel sad and don't feel like you're belong to this world.

Macam best je buku ini. Buku karangan Fatimah Syarha, Pemilik Cintaku Setelah Allah dan Rasul tu pun sangat best.

I think that I should buy this book la, the biography of Dr. Aidh bin Abdullah Al-Qardawi since I like his books so much so I need to know who is he too, right?

So after Asar prayer, kami pun pergi Mydin. Barang-barang dekat Mydin sekarang dah mahal kot so jangan beli sana dah. Barang kecik-kecik je pun boleh cecah RM50. Nama je pemborong. haha. Jahatkan, mengutuk dulu sebelum bercerita. So macam biasalah pergi sana nak beli barang keperluan harian. Nasiblah me yang paling murah yang lain semua above RM80. And then kami singgah dekat food court beside Mydin makan nasi ayam lepas itu balik Maidam. Hari ini seronok sebab dapat jalan-jalan dan tak terperuk dalam Maidam je. Syonok2. Banyak timba pengalaman. tahu jalan sikit-sikit nak pergi bandar dan tahu jugaklah sikit-sikit bahasa Terengganu which I learnt from pakcik yang bawa kereta itu. Kira murah la kereta angkut tu, dia hantar kami dari Kampus Kota ke Kampus Gong Badak, ke Mydin, and then balik ke Maidam dari pukul 3.15 pm until 830 pm kami kena bayar sebanyak RM50 sahaja. Bukan setiap seorang kena bayar RM50 tetapi kami berempat. Maknanya kalau dibahagi empat seorang kena bayar RM12 lebih untuk perjalanan sejauh tu. I feel satisfied la.

p/s : Recently, I used to bought things which have a love symbols, love quotes or love words on it. Please, don't ask me why....

Well, bila I start tulis tadi I kinda macam tak de idea and now at least I can share something with you. Actually I believe that there's lot to write here but I just can't remember because I kept postpone the time to write a new entry for my blog so I'm very sorry. So that's all la I think for now.

Wassalam.

WEIGHT!!!

Assalamualaikum.

Hye2, apa khabar semua? (ceyhh, bajet ada ramai orang baca blog dia je kan). Tape2, yang penting confident. hehe. Kali ini nak menceritakan tentang pengalaman baru aku di sini, di universiti ini. But this's not about this university or my friends or my seniors bla bla bla( word Prof. Pari..haha...sangat comel bila dia cakap macam ni), but it's about me, once again. :D Well, of course la kan, title for this blog pun saya dah tukar which is 'A Real Diary of a Medical Student' which I thought will be more compatible with all of my entries kan. So, yeah, after this I'll just write about my personal diary in here(not that personal la kan). I really hope la that my friends, lecturers, or seniors doesn't find my blog. huhuhu.. kalau tak nanti buat malu je.

So today I'll talk( I don't know which words is suitable la, talk write say???apa beza talk and say kan. ape2 la..) about WEIGHT. MY WEIGHT. Sebelum ini when I was in primary school I never thought about this. I was fat during that time but I never care to have it because I was still a small girl. And then when I went for a secondary school, I had an ideal weight when I was in Form 1 because my height was increasing drastically more than my weight. So at that time, only at that particular time, I had an experience to have an ideal body weight. And when I was in Form 3 to 4, my weight increase more that my height and as you already predicted yes I was fat during that time. Still, I don't care much about my body. And when I think about it back, it's weird of how I have an admirer when I was Form 4. haha.

What I want to stress here is that, the reason of why I never care about my weight of all this time. The reason is because my close and bestiest friends around me also have a weight which is more that the ideal weight but I'm more fatter than them la. So when I was around them, I just feel normal, you see. And one more reason is because I was really lazy to go for an exercise and in addition, I ate what I want without any constriction and with any quantity that I like.

So the lessons from my laziness life before this is that I'm becoming an unconfident girl right now when I enter this university. Why? Because whether I like or not, my friends and seniors which surrounds me in here are all have an ideal weight plus beautiful(for girls only). Yeah, THE ENVIRONMENT HAVE CHANGE. I'm not with my best friends anymore, I'm in this new environment which give me a stress. But whatever it is, I try to take it positively and alhamdulillah with Allah's guide I know what I have to do after this.

So untuk adik-adik di luar sana yang ada masalah obesity, cuba sedaya upaya anda untuk mendapatkan BMI yang normal okay. Ianya bukan untuk orang lain tetapi untuk diri anda sendiri. Yeah, untuk kepuasan diri anda sendiri especially girls la. Boys pun sama juga sebenarnya. Hmm, there's a lot of lessons that I got la walaupun baru beberapa minggu di sini. Hope I'll survive! Pray for me okay! Insyaallah..

p/s : Seronok la macam ini, boleh bagi nasihat untuk adik-adik or orang lain di luar sana. Belum jadi doktor betul lagi..hehe.. :PPP

Upss, I'm going to talk about it once again!!

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum.

As my title told you, yes I'm going to repeat my old entry. It's about confident. Remember my last entry about 'When my confident crash!', yeahh, I'm gonna write about it once again. For my old entry, I remember I felt unconfident because of many pretty girls in facebook. And now, once again, I feel unconfident but not because of facebook BUT because of all the beautiful girls (including my friends and seniors) here.

If and only if you know what I feel ( I just hope you can feel it)...

Last two days, I had done the body composition to check for amount of fat, water. muscle in body, BMI and so on using that machine (which I dunno yet what it's called). Our lecturer, Prof. Murali made it compulsory for us to do that (which if he don't force us, I surely wouldn't do it). So, this one machine can tell your body age, that's mean, from what it calculate about your body fat, and bla bla bla, it conclude that your now body is in what age. And my body age is 40. I think I'm the oldest la. Compare to others, ada yang 30 lebih jugak but I still tak dengar lagi ada yang dapat 40 and above. First time I knew about it, I'm not so sad. I just try my best to ignore the result and forget about it. But later, my friends kept bothered me by asking my body age and it makes me remember about it, it makes me stress and, sad. This is one of the reason why I feel unconfident right now.

In addition, my skin's getting darker. It's all because of the orientation week! huhuhu..my skin especially my face is not as before. Well, my mum said I'm not that dark but still different from before la. This's the third reason.

The fourth reason is because I'm FAT! Yes, I am. Compare to my friends, I'm FAT. And actually yes it's true that I'm in the obesity state right now.

Fifth, I'm not as famous as before when I'm in high school. It's not that I'm crazy to be famous but it's just that people don't want to listen to me that I feel useless. Just like that. Well, I'm not even capable to be the leader's assistant for my class because I'm not a talkative person. T.T  I feel useless and so sad..

Sixth, I feel unconfident because everyone ignores me! T.T including my senior. Well, bukanlah ignore macam tak layan if I'm gonna ask them or something it's just that they have no reason to talk to me. It seems like nothing but I feel something because it's different from my life in high school before this.

Yeah, I think this is the major reasons why I feel unconfident. I keep have a negative thinking which I dunno why I'm like this...! wuuu...I'm not like this before. I'm not a negative person. I'm not...! Help ME! I really wish somebody can help me to overcome this. I can't think positive anymore. That positive data is missing from my brain.

p/s : Positive Liyana, positive!

p/ss: I need to settings my feelings la, I need to know how to differentiate between love and impress+like someone's charm and advantages.

Luahan perasaan Tajuk utama : Mengenai CINTA...

Assalamualaikum.

First of all, minta maaf lah sebab entry kebelakangan ni asyik meluahkan perasaan je. I don't know where to tell about my problem so that's why I think this is the best place I can search and go to tell and write and say all the things that I wanna say.

Like the title, today @ tonight I want to say about love. Yes, love which I think any new students in the new university can't terlepas dari hal ini. Whether they keep it tight in their heart or they told it to their family or friends. Girls especially yang baru masuk U ni pasti akann TERjatuh hati pada their U's YDP. Believe me, don't u say you don't like your U's YDP. I think it's normal la since girls or one day we'll be a women, will like a man who can lead and have a high charisma, those who can atrract others when they talk and can talk spontaneously and continuously. So that's a charm that women like in man.. Yes, and I'm that one of girls who like my U's YDP. As usual, where's the best place to find people that we really want to know except from facebook right? I find his profile and I found it. BUT! After he approved me, I just knew that he has a GF. Wuahh, I feel really kecewa... seriously. I just know it tonight so that's why I feel really sad right now.. huhuhu..

I really want to say sorry because I agak merepek malam ni. Macam he will like me je kan if I add him in facebook. I think to be with him is 1% or less compare to the others beautiful and smart girls who like him too. But as I said before, I just want to express my feelings only, in here so that I won't remember it anymore for the next time.

I just think that love is not for me.

p/s : I will continue it later since my laptop's battery is low. Goodnight! Assalamualaikum.

New life in university

Assalamualaikum.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I don't know how much time I'm wasting my 'air mata' in here, at this new place. I'm not like this when I was in matrix once before. I don't know la maybe it's too tiring and tension here. I mean, if I stay at Kampus Gong Badak I think I can try to adapt with the environment because I'm used with it. But know suddenly we need to pindah here at Kampus Kota without knowing any single things in here, that I feel like a strangers. Like kambing masuk kampung ( I'm not sure whether kambing or what kind of animal). The tired feeling is still here in my body and now we need to continue our next orientation day this weekend. We're so lucky, right? And I'm totally wired off...

Actually, I should start my entry with my life during the orientation week at Kampus Gong Badak but I already wrote it in the diary so I think if I feel rajin to type it, I'll type it here. For the first time I arrived at Kampus Kota, I felt blur. And that's the first day in Terengganu that I cried. Hardly. Yeah, it has been a long time since the last time I cried so hard like that. It's because of a lot of pressure I've been face and need to go through that I finally let it OUT! Yeah...finally..

And it's not just that, tonight I cried again when I know that we must go to the orientation in this weekend and can't give any lame excuse. Well, they give us a chance to go out with parents using the free time that we have but I think it's not berbaloi since they come here a long way and I just can see them for only an hour. Who will be satisfied with that right? And once again I can't do anything that it makes me feel easy to cry rather than talking back or anything else.

And you must be wonder why I type in english. It's because we, here, need to talk in english whether in lecture, class or when we talk to the lecturer. The aim is because to make us getting used with that language. And it's kinda of cultural shock to me but I still try my best to talked in english with my friends. Luckily, they don't laugh at me. And then the lecturer that we got here, some of them come from outside of our country that they have their own accent. Sometimes, I just can't understand what they said and sometimes they talked to fast that I feel dizzy. Honestly, I feel boring to learn and talk in english almost everytime that I just feel want to talk in malay back, as usual.

This first week of lecture, I can say that I feel blur. There's so many things that I need to get used first and of course we're talking about time here. I need some time to get used with all of this new things that I face. One think that I want, I just hope I won't give up in this field that I already choose.

When we started our lecture, it's funny of how easy I felt sleepy that I cant stand to open my eyes anymore. And then I remember that biology is always the boring and sleepy subject when I was in matrix. And then I wonder of how come I take this course when I was always sleepy at the biology lecture in matrix. I'll rather make math or chemy's practice in my room at matrix rather that study bio because I know from the time I start to open the book, I'll feel sleepy.

And one more thing,  I think that my friends don't liek me so much and I don't know why. I always try my best to keep smiling when I see them. Yeah, I'm a silent person but can it make them hate me? huhu. I tried my sis's advice and I still don't know whether it works or not.

The best thing about being here is that the internet is so fast that I don't have a problem to do anything involving internet anymore. I'm very thankful about this one thing. It seems like I can wrote many entry la after this since I can online whenever I want. Well, just one way for me to express my feelings only.

Overall, I just can't get used with the life here. I hope I can get used as soon as possible so that I'll just have to think about study only after this. Insyaallah.

Kisah hari ini

Dialog ketika aku sedang memasak bersama-sama dengan mak :

Aku : Mak, pedih la bawang... ~.~ (mata terkelip-kelip sambil berair..)

Mak : Bukan awak pun yang kupas. Mak yang kupas ni pun okay je. Ha tengok-tengok. Tak berair pun mata. Tula lain kali setiap petang kena kupas bawang. Bawang tu tak biasa dengan awak.

Aku : Mummy, bawang pun tak biasa dengan Nana..hahahahahaha..

Mak : Jomla berbuka dekat masjid hari ini..

Aku : Takk naakkk... (sambil buat muka sedih)

Mak : Ala, ni je la pun sekali ada peristiwa, pasni takde dah la nak buka kat masjid..

Aku : Tak moo...nanti nana segan makan kat sana. Ase macam ada orang pandang je..Nanti tak selera nak makan.

Mak : La, apenye orang nak pandang awak. Perasan je. Takde orang nak pandang awak, suap je makanan dalam mulut tu..

Aku : Tak moo.... (sambil mengemukakan beribu-ribu alasan)

Mak : Haaa yelahhh yelaahhh! Ups to u!

Aku : Hahahahaha..mummy speaking...UPS to u...hahaha..

Mak : HAHAHAHA..kalau nak marah tu keluar jugak..UPS TO U!

Aku dan mak : HAHAHAHHA!!

Selepas seketika,

Mak : Dah siap ke tumbuk tu? (Sambil bersiap-sedia nak masukkan bawang)

Aku : Mummy, mummy..belum lagi..Jap2.

Mak : Cukuplah tu..okay dah tu..

Aku : Belum mummy, biji lada belum lumat lagi...

Mak : (memasukkan terus bawang~)

Aku : Tapela, dah la nana buka sorang-sorang malam ni, mak pun bagi makan biji lada je..

Mak : HAHAHAHAHA..

Kesimpulannya, hari ini banyak gelak dengan mak. haha. Seronok-seronok.

Secret admirer...

Assalamualaikum

Seronok kalau ada secret admirer bagi hadiah macam ini. ^^

Tajuk entry kali ini, secret admirer. Kenapa? Well, I believe that each one of us have their own secret admirer. Whether he/she is our closest friends, cousins, relatives, friends or people that we never knew who's he/she at all. Yeah, it's possible. So, hendaknya lah korang berasa gembira mendengar berita ini. Tetapi yang pasti janganlah terlalu bangga dan gembira okay. Ini pun cuma anggapan aku sahaja dan tanpa ada sebarang siasatan atau kajian yang lanjut. keh3.

Kadang-kadang seronok juga perasan ada secret admirer kan (walaupun in reality tak ada orang pun nak minat.. *sila tergelak kecil ). Tetapi lah, aku yakin bahawa ada seseorang yang tengah memerhatikan setiap gerak-geriku setiap detik dan waktu tanpa aku sedari. Wahh, someone's watching over me! Dan ada juga yang sedang merinduiku di saat ini. Ceyhh ceyhhh ceyhhhh... Bagaimanakah aku boleh mengeluarkan suatu fakta yang begini secara berani? Sebab.. aku sendiri pun ada minat seseorang tanpa dia sedari atau tahu. Wah3..gatal kau kan.

Bagi aku dan aku percaya orang lain pun percaya, it's normal to like someone. Suka. itu. biasa. normal. dan. tidak. salah. Yeah, itu dia aku sudah katakan. haha. Aku suka, yang tidak membawa kepada apa-apa hubungan selain daripada teman sahaja. Teman tetapi mesra (mesra la sangat kan). So aku percaya bahawa jika aku ada minat dekat seseorang pasti ada orang lain yang minat dekat aku. Ceyhh...aku pehal nak bangga-bangga diri ni..haha..maaf. Tiada niat buruk lagi jahat.

Kadang-kadang ada jenis secret admirer yang menakutkan, di mana dia mengekori, memerhati dan mengikuti setiap perkembangan anda di facebook, twitter, blogger, youtube (kalau u ada Utube la kan), hi5, friendster, myspace dan bermacam-macam tempat lagi yang anda telah daftarkan. Siap tahu your DOB, tempat tinggal dan no. henfon lagi. Ini jenis secret admirer ha, I tell you dia memang nak kan you la. Jangan lepaskan dia. Sila terima dia okay (pandai-pandai je nasihat orang, kalau kau kena kau nak terima?) Wahaha. Tetapi aku rasala kan, this type of secret admirer sangat romantikla (kalau dia ada niat baikla kan, bukan ada tujuan nak meng'harm'kan kita). I mean, dia macam meneliti kita dari jauh je dan sampai suatu saat insyaallah dia akan merisik (untuk lelaki) untuk dijadikan isteri. Wahhh, romantik-romantik.

Ada satu lagi jenis ma, ni orang ma, dia minat lu tau. Tetapi dia tak amik tahu pasal lu pun. Dia just minat lu je. Suka tengok muka lu. Stalk u. Baca-baca blog u. Macam tu je lah. (tiba-tiba macam minah rempit pula..). Dan biasanya inilah my type. Maksudku, inilah aku kalau aku sebagai seorang secret admirer. Yela kan, buat apa nak amik berat semua pasal dia siap tahu makanan kegemaran dan minuman kegemaran dia kalau dia dah ada buah hati, kekasih,pengarang jantung dia sendiri. Well, yeah. Aku memang tak romantik dalam bab-bab ni. Ngaku-ngankung. hee.

Mungkin banyak lagi kot jenis-jenis seorang secret admirer ni, mungkin ada yang pertengahan juga. Cuma aku tak mahu elaborate sahaja. Maaf.

Ta. ta. ta.

p/s : Bajet ada secret admirer, follower pun ada tiga je........................(kot-kot pembaca senyap banyak kot :D )

p/ss : Ye, akulah orang yang selalu bajet dan perasaan. Maaf andai kata sikap ku ini kurang menyenangkan...

Naluri seorang ibu

Assalamualaikum.

 

Assalamualaikum. My name is Qaisara Irdina. I'm 2 years old and Qistina Batrisyia's younger sister. I'm a funny girl and many people like me! Nice to know all of you!

Assalamualaikum. Hye, everyone! My name is Qistina Batrisyia. I'm a shy person and they always said that I'm 'anak papa'. I coudln't agree more and I love that title! I love my sister and for this upcoming October I'll have a younger brother! Yeay, I'm excited bout it!

Qis and  Sara said, " And by the way, we love our Mak Su so much!"

Mak Su,"Owhh, soo sweettt! Come here I kiss both of you!"

Pictures of my beloved nieces and sweethearts! I love them so much!

Sejujurnya aku menulis sekarang tanpa tajuk. Aku tidak tahu apakah tajuk yang sesuai aku letakkan untuk entry kali ini. Kisah Ramadhan?Kisah Solat Terawikh? Rasa macam tidak kena  pula. So, aku mulakan menulis dahulu, mungkin nanti aku akan mendapat sumber inspirasi dari penulisan untuk buat tajuk entry pada kali ini.

Mahu aku ceritakan kisah ketika aku solat terawikh kelmarin. Ceritanya pendek, dan sekadar ingin berkongsi. As usual, kalau solat terawikh malam-malam pasti ada kanak-kanak yang datang, yang dibawa oleh ibu bapa mereka. Kadang-kadang ada juga yang tidak puas hati dengan sikap ibu bapa dengan membawa anak-anak mereka di masjid terutamanya dalan kalangan budak-budak muda.

Katanya, "Bisinglah! Tak boleh nak kusyuk solat." 

Well, itu cuma ayat aku sahaja. Lebih kuranglah ye. Bagi aku pula, aku tak kisah sebenarnya mereka datang (budak-budak kecil tu). Sebab biarlah mereka bermain atau menjerit pun di belakang, insyaallah bila sudah besar dan faham nanti mereka akan teringat saat-saat ibu bapa mereka bawa mereka ke masjid untuk solat terawikh. At least, mereka pernah berada dalam situasi solat terawikh tersebut dan mereka berasa gembira untuk datang menunaikan solat terawikh bila mereka besar kelak. (Bercakap melalui pengalaman) But this's just a personal opinion. Don't be mad, okay.

Hah, melalut sudah. Aku ni kadang-kadang bercerita tentang sesuatu perkara pun boleh jadi satu perenggan sudah. Kononlah kan sudah lama tak update blog sebab tak ada idea, sedangkan idea itu ada cuma malas nak dicurahkan sahaja. Berbalik kepada cerita. Okay, kejadian ini berlaku semasa solat terawikh. Adalah seorang budak lelaki ini, budak kecik dalam lingkungan dua tahun, sangat comel I kata kat u (perkara-perkara yang dirasakan comel membuatkan aku TERgedik seketika), pakai songkok dengan siap berbaju melayu. Dia dengan selambee berjalan di depan jemaah perempuan yang sedang solat and of course la dia berjalan depan aku kan. Kalau tak buat apa nak cerita. Eii, geram! Dahla kenit, jalan tergedek-gedek. Nasib bak time nak sujud dia pergi tempat lain, kalau tak dah sah-sah kena tangkap dengan aku. haha. Nak diceritakan disini (tak sampai lagi main cerita rupanya..haha ), masa dia lalu depan aku dengan kecomelannya, terus hati aku berbisik,

"Ei, comelnya, geramnya! Arghh..geram-geram. hmm... kalau ada anak yang secomel ini kan mesti best," lantas aku tersenyum. 

Dan dah sah-sahla solat ku tak kusyuk sudah! Ni semua sebab budak kecik tu. haha.

Well, yeahhh. Sejak kebelakangan umurku sudah mencecah dewasa (ceyh, tak sampai 20 lagi kot), tiba-tiba perasaan sayang kepada budak-budak itu semakin menjadi-jadi terutamanya dekat budak-budak kecik-kecik yang comel-comel. Sangat geram. Aku banyak dah perhatikan sikap ini sebelumnya pada rakan-rakan perempuanku yang lain (terutamanya Abby, aww!) tetapi aku baru dapat rasakan perasaan ini baru-baru ini. Bagi diri seperti aku yang dilahirkan sebagai anak bongsu ini, susah sebenarnya untuk aku merasa sayang dan geram pada budak-budak kecik sebab kejelesan yang melanda. Tetapi sekarang tidak lagi. Wuah, adakah ini bermakna aku sudah dewasa?!! Booo....tak ada orang nak percaya. haha.

Perasaan semacam ini aku yakin akan dirasai oleh setiap gadis-gadis yang meningkat dewasa. Perasaan dan naluri seorang ibu yang tidak dapat dielakkan oleh gadis-gadis. Indahnya dan kagumnya aku akan ciptaan Allah, yang datang tanpa kita sedari!

It's hard la for me to tell you how's the feeling. It's like when you see a baby, you feel like you want to cubit-cubit dia, nak sentuh dia dan cuba dukung dia (tapi tak berani takut jatuh wuuu T_T ). What I do when I first saw a baby was that I'll smile so brightly and then mulalah mencubit-cubit pipi baby tersebut. Aww, sangat comel! (kau apehal nak aww2 sangat kan..~.~ )

Okeyh, da dapat tajuk entry kali ini (terbalik code). haha. Sampai situ sahajalah kisah hari ini. Selanjutnya, sila layan gambar-gambar tersebut.

 "Alamak, die kate hye kat kitew la! cmneni cmneni...Asew nakcubit-cubit je. Boleh tak saya cubit awak? Bolehla..boleehlaa...eii!!geramm.."

 *faint...........................disebabkan terlalu omei..

"Hahhh, harap-harapnye nanti anak-anakku comel macam ini atau lebih comellagi..aminn Ya Rab!"

p/s : Kata-kata di atas bukan berasal dari penulis blog ini..................(ceyhh, tak nak mengaku kunun..haha)

Wassalam.

Kisah Ali bin Husain Memuliakan Ibunya

Dia ialah Abu al-Hasan Ali bin Husain bin Ali bin Abi Talib, atau disebut Zainal Abidin. Dia termasuk pemuka tabiin yang sangat berbakti kepada ibunya.

Suatu ketika dinyatakan kepadanya : "Sesungguhnya engkau adalah orang yang sangat berbakti kepada ibumu, tetapi mengapa kami tidak pernah melihat engkau makan bersama ibumu?"

Dia menjawab: "Aku khuatir tanganku lebih dahulu mengambil makanan yang sudah dilihatnya, sehingga aku menjadi derhaka kepadanya."

Sumber : Durus Ramdan, jil 1, hlm. 49

~Dipetik dari Majalah Solusi Isu No. 34

Diazab Kerana Berbuka Sebelum Waktu

Daripada Abu Umamah al-Bahili bahawa dia mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda yang bermaksud :

"Ketika aku tidur, dua orang lelaki datang kepadaku, mengangkat kedua-dua belah tanganku dan membawa aku ke sebuah gunung berbatu. Mereka berkata, 'Dakilah.' Aku berkata : 'Aku tidak boleh melakukannya.' Mereka berkata : 'Kami akan memudahkan untuk kamu mendakinya.'

Maka, aku mendaki sehingga ke atas puncak gunung. Kemudian, aku terdengar suatu suara yang sangat kuat. Aku bertanya : 'Suara apakah itu?' Mereka menjawab : 'Itu adalah jeritan para penghuni neraka.'

Kemudian, aku dibawa pergi dan aku melihat orang yang digantung pada buku lalinya, mulutnya terkoyak dan mengalir darah. Aku bertanya, 'Siapakah mereka itu?' Mereka menjawab : 'Mereka ialah  oarang yang berbuka puasa sebelum masa yang sepatutnya.' (Riwayat al-Baihaqi)

Jika orang yang berbuka awal menerima hukuman yang keras sedemikian rupa, bagaimana pula jika seseorang itu tidak berpuasa? Anak kecil yang belum mencapai usia baligh masih boleh dimaafkan lagi, tetapi ketegasan perlu ditunjukkan buat mereka yang sudah berstatus mukalaf.

~Dipetik dalam sudut ANEKDOT, Majalah Solusi Isu No. 34